So I'm home alone. Which is a luxury, to be able to have my own place, with air conditioning, a comfy bed, a great TV, a blu-ray player and Netflix. But I have too much time on my hands. But I am also afraid to do anything. I do not want to leave the house. I would have nothing to do anyway. As of right now I am in the odd and very lucky position of having all my financial needs taken care of, and having absolutely nothing to do.
I could make cards for my fledgling tutoring business, but I am afraid. I could go get something to eat, but I don't want to leave the house. I just watch tv, screw around on the internet, and hide.
I am supposed to start IOP tomorrow, and I'm worried that I'm only doing it because I don't know what else to do. I need to get myself a life, but I don't want to. But I am no longer suicidal- I know I am going to live, I just don't know HOW.
Ugh. Ugh. Uggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. I guess the first step would be to take a shower. Then get something to eat. Then go to a meeting. Then what? Who the fuck knows.
I could make cards for my fledgling tutoring business, but I am afraid. I could go get something to eat, but I don't want to leave the house. I just watch tv, screw around on the internet, and hide.
I am supposed to start IOP tomorrow, and I'm worried that I'm only doing it because I don't know what else to do. I need to get myself a life, but I don't want to. But I am no longer suicidal- I know I am going to live, I just don't know HOW.
Ugh. Ugh. Uggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. I guess the first step would be to take a shower. Then get something to eat. Then go to a meeting. Then what? Who the fuck knows.
