Its like a buddy road trip movie, except that the buddy is me and we only travel in our head. bur otherwise its excellent!!!!!! So basically that mean to viewer on the outsidfe:: Crazy heavy freckled grirl laughing and taking to herself as she lays in a hammock in the bright orange sunlight. And alsoo crazy freckled gril doing stuff with herse3fl like a schzo, but I am not schizo I am dissociative. :)
Thursday, August 1, 2013
Happy
I am completely and utterly dissocaied now. and I dont care, wich is coool. so I am letting this go out as it is. because this is the truth. the truth is messy and gross and incorect grammaticallly. I am watching Girls and I am very happy about the seond season. They are telling the truth about class and fame and whoring and the lines that blur between them. I love it. love it. love it. i am so fcking out of it right now that ovviouadsly i cant type for shit. but i am safe. i am in my pretty apt with green grass and sunlight and a hammock. Safe. And we paid the rent and made sure there was enough money in the account for the check to clear even though it wont cleear for like a week and a half. He always takes forever to cash the check. but that is cool, becuasue the point is when you write the check, you have the money. DONE. via GABRIEL.
Also we own the internet at this place now. Whooot!!!!!!!!!! We fucking rock!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We did the thing Nancy does on Weeds. We did what Jessa does on Girls. We just took what was ours and were fari about it and 1YATTYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY. And fuck them if they try to fuck with us. Chesire Grin
Also we own the internet at this place now. Whooot!!!!!!!!!! We fucking rock!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We did the thing Nancy does on Weeds. We did what Jessa does on Girls. We just took what was ours and were fari about it and 1YATTYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY. And fuck them if they try to fuck with us. Chesire Grin
some new rules?
ok, so we are trying to figure out how to dissociate when we are not high. So we've heard that we have to have an hour of alone naked time in the house to run and scream around per day. Ok. Will do, although there was a quyeasy feeling in my stomach just then , but I think its ok. be in the sunlight more!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
okeydokey. sunlight more. alone. we need alone sunlight time. Is the hammock safe enough? No, because of the fucking neighbors. fich. well we'll work on that. laying in the grass. not the hammock. ok
gabriel is gay. he likes boys. we just figured that out. victoria likes girls. problem. not a huge problem, but a funny one. i say. who is i?
snyder park was a safe place. we need to go there i guess. no place else workds. ok. done..once a day? thats a lot. Yeah, vut what the fuck else are we doing? serisously? Yeah, I gueass you're right.
tired, movies. yessssssssssssssssssssssssss.
okeydokey. sunlight more. alone. we need alone sunlight time. Is the hammock safe enough? No, because of the fucking neighbors. fich. well we'll work on that. laying in the grass. not the hammock. ok
gabriel is gay. he likes boys. we just figured that out. victoria likes girls. problem. not a huge problem, but a funny one. i say. who is i?
snyder park was a safe place. we need to go there i guess. no place else workds. ok. done..once a day? thats a lot. Yeah, vut what the fuck else are we doing? serisously? Yeah, I gueass you're right.
tired, movies. yessssssssssssssssssssssssss.
So This Is Why We Dissociate
So I am zoned to the universe on DXM in a beautiful angry orange sunlight place. And I'm Like lets do this. This is wh we sissocdiate. we let it go . or soething . idosn know ifi can type fast enough to get this all down. I am in the moment of NO. NO orange beautiful blasting out. i want it to be world where there3 is no fuckin g need for NO, but that is not the world we live in. Orange is the New Black F*cksgiving That is it. They captured it perfectly. its amazimg. piper says you CANT HAVE ME, YOU COULD NEVER HAVE ME. or something like that. she screams it out in a total seemingly dissociative state and then confirms it by having sex with Vause when she gets out of SHU. And then the audience gets all excited about a love triangle, lesbian sex, blah , blah. BUT THAT IS NOT THE FUCKING POINT
THE POINT IS, THAT YOU DON'T OWN ME. YOU WILL NEVER OWN ME, AND YOU WILL NEVER WIN. I AM ME. I LOVE ME. I CLAIM ME. I CLAIM ME AND ALL ME NEEDS TO BE HAPPY., not too much stuff. But enough to be FUCKING HAPPY. So BASICALLLY, FUCK OFF, WORLD, I AM GOING TO BE A GREEN VEGETARIAN POET WITH A DRUM AND A GUITAR AND A TRUCKLOAD OF MATH AND BASIC CHEMISTRY KNOWLEDGE AND i AM GOING TO LIVE HOW I WANT TO LIVE. WITH BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE GETTING OVER THEIR PAIN BY PAINTING AND DANCING AND SINGING AND RUNNING...... and yoga :) and I want to live a healthy life creating stuff? (dont know what yet) helping people figure systems out, because I am incredibly good at that. I can figure a system like nobody's business. SO. LET'S GET FIGURING!!!!
i love you jeanette.
THE POINT IS, THAT YOU DON'T OWN ME. YOU WILL NEVER OWN ME, AND YOU WILL NEVER WIN. I AM ME. I LOVE ME. I CLAIM ME. I CLAIM ME AND ALL ME NEEDS TO BE HAPPY., not too much stuff. But enough to be FUCKING HAPPY. So BASICALLLY, FUCK OFF, WORLD, I AM GOING TO BE A GREEN VEGETARIAN POET WITH A DRUM AND A GUITAR AND A TRUCKLOAD OF MATH AND BASIC CHEMISTRY KNOWLEDGE AND i AM GOING TO LIVE HOW I WANT TO LIVE. WITH BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE GETTING OVER THEIR PAIN BY PAINTING AND DANCING AND SINGING AND RUNNING...... and yoga :) and I want to live a healthy life creating stuff? (dont know what yet) helping people figure systems out, because I am incredibly good at that. I can figure a system like nobody's business. SO. LET'S GET FIGURING!!!!
i love you jeanette.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)